I hate when I get mad and say terrible things. I really don't want to be this bitter old bitch but it's hard not to when you feel cheated. I know the routine, "no one can make you happy but yourself" & "you are responsible for your own actions" but how do you let go of what you dreamed your life would be and just accept that this is all you get.

Is there a point where you just give up and go through the motions. My big fear is that I will look back on my life and wish that I had enjoyed it more. Of course when I get like this I just watch an episode of Jerry Springer and realize thing could be worse.

I have made so many bad choices, usually because I am impulsive and don't think things through. I know you don't get a "do over" but I just wish some mistakes were not so "permanent."

Oh well enough of my pity party, thanks for letting me vent.