Life pretty much sucks right now. Thank God I will head home in 14 days to see my family and friends.

The floor refinishing project has turned into a major fiasco and a financial drain.

When the first comment on every tutorial reads "Warning: hire a professional" it's no joke. As usual my attempt to save a few dollars(read cheap) has ended up costing me as much (if not more) than the cost of hiring a professional.

It's been 10 days and the living room furniture is still in the kitchen. We have stripped the floor twice, spent 3 days sanding the floor and been through numerous colors of stain. We also have been required to eat out every night since Oct. 28, because we can't get to the stove. This means I am broke and gaining weight. I will dwell more on the ill fated floor project in a future post.

While there are several things that have me in a major funk, the "icing on the cake" came last night when I was ambushed during a monthly board meeting. It was so bad that one of the board members walked out during the meeting and plans to resign because he is so angry about the way I was treated. In a later phone converstaion he said at one point in the meeting I looked like a deer caught in head lights.

I can't say I was as stunned(I had a feeling that things might not be all warm and fuzzy) but in replaying the comments over in my head, were some very condescending things said that I did not pick up on at the time.

Of course I did not sit there like a beaten dog. For the first time I stood my ground. It's really difficult to have someone with little or no business experience sit there and question your decisions; especially when revenue increased more than 30 percent during my first year.

H3 wants me to walk in and resign tomorrow. Unfortunately (or fortunately) that is not my style. While it's not a money issue (I make three-times more a month from consulting work) I can't just walk away from the benefits. When your husband is diabetic and you have kids that need health coverage you can't be that irresponsible.

I may start looking around but then again I learned the hard way that dealing with the devil you know is better than the devil you don't. I made the mistake of thinking the grass was greener somewhere else, and it’s a choice I have lived to regret.

So here I am at 3:09 am stressing about things I have no control over. I keep trying to remind myself of all the positives. Let’s see there is the flexibility, ....

Okay, so I can only come up with one for now, but I am sure there are others.