It was a strange day. H3 and the little one are at an overnight camp out. Since I was all alone all day I ended up going to Raleigh thinking I could find something fun to do. I went to the Farmers Market and bought some plants and tomatoes. Then I drove around for a while trying to think of what I could do “all by myself” but ended up just heading home. I felt sad because if I had been in the ‘ville, a weekend all alone would have meant it was party time.

So now I am sitting on the couch watching Iron Chef being bored. I could clean the house or catch up on some editorial work but I just don’t want to.

I was just thinking about a conversation I had the other day with the little one. I was arguing with him over getting his over-grown hair cut.

He said he hated getting his hair cut. I explained to him that if he did not get it cut it would grow long and he would look like a girl.

He looked at me and said, very matter-of-fact, "Jeremy has long hair."

I had no rational response at that point except to say "well I read on the Internet that he is getting it cut." I thought it was an incredibly funny thing to say but I didn’t want him to know that.

I feel abnormally devoid of feelings at the moment. I get the sense that I am in some kind of bubble and that all around me things are swirling out of control.

There is this feeling that I am cut off from everyone and everything, but I really don't care. I am juggling so many projects and each is hanging by thread. One bad toss and it could all come crashing down.

The strange thing is that I am on auto-pilot. I am just going through the steps of each day. One task after another. I called Twinkie today hoping that she would have funny story that could make me laugh. Unfortunately her man told me she was in bed sick. So much for that form of therapy.

Last week I logged into My Space to check up on Megmonster and I discovered that she had deleted her account. I may have overreacted ( I know! It's so out of character for me )but I went a little crazy on her. Since I moved East it has been one of the only ways I can get inside information on what she is doing. It's not like we don't talk several times a week but there is something about knowing who her friends are and reading their comments that makes me feel like I actually know what's going on in her life. Her boyfriend also deleted his account which was even worse because it made me feel better to know that she was in a relationship with someone who really loves her.

So in my panic I demanded (yes demanded) that they both start blogs so I could continue to be a voyeur in their lives. Being the good daughter that she is(I understand that she only tolerates my insanity because I gave birth to her) she created a blogger account and got the boyfriend to play along.

Now that I have read a few of her posts I am happy to say that the girl may have future as a blogger. Being very opinionated (wonder were she gets that from?) it's a great way for her to express herself (and keep her mom happy.)

I am also very excited that her boyfriend actually has a brain. Not that I ever doubted him, but it's refreshing to see young adults who can write intelligently about things outside of topics such as hooking up, drugs and video games.

If you have any interest in learning about what goes on in the minds of the next great (albeit pierced and tattooed) generation then take a look.

http://megmonster.blogspot.com/


http://mousemercenary.blogspot.com/